Have I got news for you.
Watch this, itāll only take 32 seconds ā for you, at least š :
If you canāt watch it for some reason, hereās the transcript:
Or, as my colleague Tamsin announced to the Twitterverse recently:
Remember recently when I wrote about why I donāt āgetā waiting for 13 weeks before sharing the great news? Well, this is money where your mouth is time.
Iām pregnant. Iām probably only around 3-4 weeks, (which has caused at least two people to roll their eyes and be rather patronising, as if itās not a real pregnancy yet) but hey ho, to each their own. I remember seeing Ameli on the screen when I was three weeks pregnant. It may just be a mass of cells, but itās my mass of cells, growing in me.
My pregnancy with Ameli started much the same as this one, with a missed period, spotting, bleeding, and then nausea and tiredness. Ā It was the spotting that led me to taking the test in the first place. And Iāve been pretty exhausted the last few days too. But really it was the spotting and the UTI. I spent the third to the 20th week of my last pregnancy terrified that I was losing my baby due to the constant bleeding.
In some ways, that is a relief to me now. I feel more confident that itāll be okay. I also feel that now, if I lose this baby, Iāll feel silly for telling people. Itās so easy to see why women are left with the feelings they have after a miscarriage. Like itās something youāve done wrong. Or something you just werenāt good enough, fit enough, healthy enough, and so on to do.
My thoughts so far have largely been around the state of homebirth in our new area. I have no idea what itās like here. I might have to start looking into private midwives. Ā After my last beautiful birth, I know thereās no way I could go for a hospital birth if I didnāt have to ā especially since in one month of living here, Iāve had two mothers tell me about their terrible experiences at our local hospital.
So, fingers crossed, this will be like Ameli. A bleed for some time, but a beautiful bouncing baby after. Ā Tired and nausea pass. But hopefully, thisāll be my child forever.
Itās early days yet, but celebrate this life with me.
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